09/06/2026
For the first time, I held our Bone Deep Circle outside. In my own garden.
I haven’t been able to tend my garden for years. My body hasn’t allowed it. The weeds came and stayed and the furniture greyed over, and I would look out from the window at the garden I love so much, watching it go without the love I wasn’t physically able to give it.
There was big grief in that. The garden had begun to mirror the loss in my body, and there were times over the last few years that I struggled to be in it at all.
Then I came back from Northern Ireland, and for a couple of months, something in me had movement again. I weeded. I scrubbed the furniture. I cleared and swept and knelt on the ground.
I cannot fully describe what it is to experience this.
To be able to move in ways I haven’t been able to in six years.
But I am writing this from inside a pain flare up now.
My body does not move in straight lines and I have stopped asking it to.
The women in our circle this season will know why this sits so close to the bone. We have been with the Irish Goddess Áine.
Her sovereignty is the dignity of meeting yourself in whatever form you have arrived in, and choosing from there.
So I chose this. The garden that had mirrored my loss became a place of circle instead. My body has not mended. But something between me and that ground has. 🙏🏻☺️💚