28/05/2026
ABUNDANCE & SELF TRUST
Every day I am reminded to let go and allow. To let go of the efforting. To trust.
The more we come into alignment, the more abundance flows.
Last week I felt myself sliding down into the abyss. It’s a pattern I can see, but when I’m there I find it hard to stop the slide, the gravity that pulls you down. Looking back, I can see that in the past I would have tried to resist it, tried to stop the slide, and admonished myself for being there in the first place.
Last week was different. Rather than wallow there, I decided to use the tools I had and breathe Abundance & Self Trust. I thought this would be a nice journey to do. Maybe it would pick me up.
What’s interesting is that I had breathed this same journey a month before and had a completely different experience. That time, I dropped into the deepest feeling of gratitude. It was centred right in my heart, and my whole chest felt like it was vibrating with it. That experience stayed with me, which is why I chose Abundance & Self Trust again last week.
I thought I was returning to gratitude, but this time something else came forward: trust. Or more truthfully, the place where trust was blocked. It wasn’t something I was aware of. I hadn’t been walking around thinking, “I don’t trust.” And yet that was exactly what came up.
It turned out to be one of the most impactful journeys I have done so far. In fact, it stands out as one of the most impactful experiences I have had, and that’s saying something. Now I know the groundwork had to have been done beforehand to allow this to be so, but still, I wanted to share.
During the journey the overwhelming feeling of vulnerability was intense. The release even more so. And still, 72 hours later, I was processing the experience.
With support from my Mark, insight came. The separation from those intense emotions and feelings came, and just like that, something clicked.
I realised that abundance isn’t something we force into being. It isn’t something we chase from a place of efforting, gripping, or trying to get it right. Sometimes the work is much deeper and much simpler than that. It is noticing where we still don’t fully trust: where we don’t trust life, where we don’t trust ourselves, where we don’t trust that we will be held if we let go.
And maybe this is where abundance begins. Not in doing more, but in softening enough to receive. Not in pushing harder, but in allowing ourselves to be met. Not in controlling every step, but in learning to trust the process as it unfolds.
This is why I’m so looking forward to holding Abundance & Self Trust this June. Because the same journey can meet us in a completely different place each time, and sometimes, it reveals the very thing we didn’t even know was standing in the way.
