11/08/2026
What happens to our sense of self when we become patients?
I have been thinking about this since writing about my experience of needing medical help.
When we are frightened, exhausted and in pain, it becomes much harder to question authority. And when the thing being questioned is your own body, there is an additional complexity: where do you locate your own authority when your body itself no longer feels familiar or trustworthy?
I've written a longer personal reflection about this — about expertise, agency, vulnerability, and what happened when I encountered a very different kind of medical professional.
I've shared the full reflection here: