04/09/2026
Fear & Worry
Why do we worry so much? We are, after all, just conscious monkeys sat on a rock, hurtling through the infinite cosmos, within a multitude of galaxies.
The universe is ridiculously big and our worries are often ridiculously small.
We are so transient, here for a brief moment in time. We think we are so important, we blow the tiniest things in our lives out of proportion. Yet it’s so challenging not to feel worry and fear, especially about the things that threaten our lives and loved ones.
That last quote is something my mum used to say to me whenever I was frightened as a child, I’ve never forgotten it.
I don’t find these ideas nihilistic at all, I find them liberating. They remind me not to take myself nor life too seriously, to loosen the grip on the things I cannot control, and to acknowledge the strange realisation that we are here at all, something I have spent my whole life doing.
I broke up with the booze almost three years ago, I decided we should get back together last weekend, after thinking about it for some time.
So the first quote is from last Saturday in a pub in Wales and the last pic is of my date 😂
It was like a first date, I felt a lot of nervous excitement and FEAR! What did it mean? Would it become a habit? Would I be disappointed in myself etc etc…
Not once did I say I would never drink again when we broke up, I knew I would eventually, I didn’t actually think it would be this soon.
But I loosened my grip, I enjoyed the moment, I was present. I lived.
These emotions tie into this time of year. When the late summer meridians of the stomach and spleen are out of balance rear & worry can rise.
Join me for The Sunday Service this Sunday for Grounding and Gratitude where we will sooth our souls and take deep rest. All details in previous post and link in my bio xx
