Rabeeka Al Alla

05/05/2026

Alhamdulillah.
From South Yorkshire to Morocco, I didn’t plan to fall in love with a place I now call my second home.

I went to Morocco for a holiday with my girlfriends for the first time—and I couldn’t understand the peace I found there. I returned home contemplative, and within a few weeks I was back in the same destination. After some time alone to reflect and re‑evaluate, I realised the only thing I was missing was Islam.

I returned home, did some research, and took my shahada—Alhamdulillah. Morocco has now become my second home—a place I call home, my joy, my peace, my happiness. Most importantly, it’s a place where I feel I can just be me: Rabeeka, a revert who practices—not the girl from South Yorkshire, UK, that everyone thinks they know.

I didn’t plan to become Muslim.
I just found my peace.

And as Allah says, He guides whom He wills to His straight path.
قَالَ رَبِّ أَرْجِعُونِ لَعَلِّي أَعْمَلُ صَالِحًا فِيمَا تَرَكْتُ
— but in my case, Allah returned me to Islam, and in it I found my home. 📿

18/04/2026

No one calls me anymore — and some Saturday nights feel quieter than I ever expected.
One of the biggest changes in my life has been the shift in my friendship circles, especially since I stepped away from social drinking in public houses.

What once felt normal now feels distant.
And while I know that Allah never takes something away without wisdom, the waiting can still feel heavy.

“If Allah knows of any good in your hearts, He will give you better than what has been taken from you.”
Quran 8:70

For many reverts, loneliness can become part of the journey. A 2024 report on British Muslim experiences found that loneliness is shaped by poor support networks and geographical isolation, which can be especially felt by converts as their community ties change.

Even when you trust the process, the path to your true self is not always easy.

But maybe that is where the growth is.

In the silence.

In the letting go.

In the becoming.

18/04/2026

One of the biggest changes in my life has been the shift in my friendship circles, especially since I stepped away from social drinking in public houses.
What once felt normal now feels distant.

And while I know that Allah never takes something away without wisdom, the waiting can still feel heavy.
“If Allah knows of any good in your hearts, He will give you better than what has been taken from you.”
Quran 8:70

For many reverts, loneliness can become part of the journey. A 2024 report on British Muslim experiences found that loneliness is shaped by poor support networks and geographical isolation, which can be especially felt by converts as their community ties change.

Even when you trust the process, the path to your true self is not always easy.

But maybe that is where the growth is.

In the silence.

In the letting go.

In the becoming.

16/04/2026

I’ve been reverted for just over 1 year. Like everyone, I have a lot of things going on in life. When I initially came to Islam, it started with just a meeting to have a chat, then the next thing I’m doing my shahada, then the next thing I’m on a 12‑week revert‑to‑Islam course.

I kept saying to my mentor, “I’m struggling, I’m struggling.” In my struggle to please everyone – including Allah – I burnt out very quickly. It didn’t turn me away from Islam, but I did isolate and argue with myself.
You see, I don’t learn like the “normal person”, and I need to learn my way, not the way of someone else.

Now I’ve realised there is no rush, and I’m greatly reminded that when we return to Allah, we are classed as babies, and this is how I treat myself: a slow and gentle approach. I learn something new every day and forgive myself, even if I can’t memorise or do it like everyone else does.

16/04/2026

I’ve been reverted for just over 1 year. Like everyone, I have a lot of things going on in life. When I initially came to Islam, it started with just a meeting to have a chat, then the next thing I’m doing my shahada, then the next thing I’m on a 12‑week revert‑to‑Islam course.

I kept saying to my mentor, “I’m struggling, I’m struggling.” In my struggle to please everyone – including Allah – I burnt out very quickly. It didn’t turn me away from Islam, but I did isolate and argue with myself.
You see, I don’t learn like the “normal person”, and I need to learn my way, not the way of someone else.

Now I’ve realised there is no rush, and I’m greatly reminded that when we return to Allah, we are classed as babies, and this is how I treat myself: a slow and gentle approach. I learn something new every day and forgive myself, even if I can’t memorise or do it like everyone else does.

12/04/2026

Sundays used to be my sacred day of worship at church. Now, Fridays fill me with anticipation for Jumu’ah.

I still feel the pull of those familiar hymns and community, especially as a revert embracing my role as a woman in Islam—where worship beautifully starts at home. Church once made me feel closer to God, but now I know Allah (SWT) is everywhere: “And to Allah belongs the east and the west. So wherever you turn, there is the Face of Allah” (Quran 2:115).

Did you know? Around 5,000 Britons revert to Islam each year—over half women (Faith Matters/BRIN surveys). Imagine the community!

Alhamdulillah for this gentle shift. It makes me wonder how each revert’s worship has evolved. 💕

12/04/2026

Sundays used to be my sacred day of worship at church. Now, Fridays fill me with anticipation for Jumu’ah.

I still feel the pull of those familiar hymns and community, especially as a revert embracing my role as a woman in Islam—where worship beautifully starts at home. Church once made me feel closer to God, but now I know Allah (SWT) is everywhere: “And to Allah belongs the east and the west. So wherever you turn, there is the Face of Allah” (Quran 2:115).

Did you know? Around 5,000 Britons revert to Islam each year—over half women (Faith Matters/BRIN surveys). Imagine the community!

Alhamdulillah for this gentle shift. It makes me wonder how each revert’s worship has evolved. 💕

10/04/2026

09/04/2026

I stepped out the car at the garden centre, not expecting the beauty of this olive tree waiting in its glow.

✨Quran 24:35 Quran.com: 'Blessed olive tree, neither of East nor West.' South Yorkshire olive -The Woodland Trust.

Roots twisted like my revert path—stronger for storms. 🌳✨

09/04/2026

I stepped out the car at the garden centre, not expecting the beauty of this olive tree waiting in its glow.

Quran 24:35 Quran.com: 'Blessed olive tree, neither of East nor West.' South Yorkshire olive The Woodland Trust.

Roots twisted like my revert path—stronger for storms.

🌳