15/04/2026
The Story š āØ : it was almost 6 years ago to the day when I was sent home from work as the news declared pregnant women were in the high risk category and needed to go into isolation. Yup, the pandemic - remember that? Then six weeks later my first born arrived.
Itās funny how that first journey of motherhood - a state of mind and side of yourself you have never known and, as such, can never prepare for - sets the foundation for how you raise any future subsequent children. I think up there in my proudest achievements in life (and, believe me, I donāt have many as the self indulgence makes me totally cringe out!) is that Iāve given my everything to each of my childrenās babyhood.
Now, this isnāt a grass is greener on the other side exercise, nor is it a āthis is the right way to do thingsā, itās just the call that I made as a mother and goodness did this song bring up some feelings as I stumbled across it yesterday as there have been some wild sacrifices, too.
Iāve had all 3 of my boys home with me for the first two years of their life, for first smiles and first steps until, finally, first transition into forest school for a few days a week. But, the cycle worked in a way that as one began their few days of independence, I still had a newborn baby at home to do the journey with all over again. But not this time.
This time, as my youngest takes his first steps into a whole new every day in September, Iāll be coming home to a house full of memories that is the quietest it has been for over half a decade. Itās not just a homecoming to bricks and mortar either, but also feels like a homecoming to self. To a me that I donāt know yet, but am excited to meet.
Whilst the years have sometimes felt endless theyāve also simultaneously passed in a blink of an eye, so Iām going to allow myself to treasure one last summer of the role that canāt be replaced, before I begin to layer back on the roles that canā¦ but still matter š¤āØ
Love as ever, .ot x
What does this song bring up for you? Letās chat below and, as ever, Iāll be replying to all the (kind!) comments šš½
šµ credit:
(thanks for writing such a beautiful song!)
