05/05/2026
Week 2... of pilates and lymphatic drainage. Tonight was tough...
But its not stopped me...
I pushed myself yesterday to leave the house, it was so freaking hard...
Everyday is such hard work...
I have memories of the day it happened replaying daily.
Nightmares starting now, as well.
Wow your Brain is so cruel..when you want to try and live life...stand tall...it hits you...replaying the whole horrible episode...
Everything i watch on TV either is to much to happy to fulm on or too deep...
I watched prisoner and it was a really hard watch for me...it was really good but...I was glad when It finished πββοΈ
I can't explain, I dont understand...
So all I can do is take 1 min, of 1hour, daily and just try and move through the day good or bad.
I've put stuff in my calendar coz Leroy D Joseph would want me to but I don't want to...im just moving through the month the year.... the s**t year..
The year I lost my right arm, my best friend, my soulmate in a blink of a eye.
Then my world turned upside down and here I am ππ’π₯ lost....