24/10/2023
❤️🩹 Grateful I attended a powerful Grief Circle this weekend facilitated by angels & in such a sacred, much needed space.
With work I am so used to doing the holding, here l was held, seen, heard, able to release and be nurturingly hugged after so so long, without the guilt of what I've carried my whole life burdening others, without the healer's ego to never be in victim mode, with authentic vulnerability and courage that only Spirit knows about. How I ached for that belonging again, to feel real intimacy by sharing the raw truth of my depths and listen to others, each so different but just like me, valiantly beautiful souls.
I came in grieving the world, mothers, fathers, children, babies, the love that is missing from people right now, not thinking I needed my own catharsis to grieve my parents, the life I thought I would have and the stolen moments we never got to see, loneliness I have felt so deeply throughout the years, the unfairness and abrubt change of reality, the matter of fact pain of what was and is, the acknowledgement and validity of my emotions and feelings.
Even if I know the higher truth of why things were and are this way through soul contracts, I accept my bassline may fluctuate through the pain, with no shame and it will still make a song, but I have the choice to make that song sound happy or sad, and woeful songs all the time will manifest more sorrow so it's important to feel the joy in the more upbeat melodies as they balance out harmony within and keep my faith in life & the world.
Sadness is allowed and welcomed without judgement, regardless of how many years it's been because grief has always been part of my life, the undertone of my empathy, that I've worked so hard to transform into wisdom and laughter and beauty from such a young, innocent age.
Maybe my pain can be that friend I don't mind seeing now and then but I can't spend too much time with because we're on different walks of life yet I remember that without love we wouldn't exist, for grief is love with no where to go.
Thank you Olivia & Iola. Check out their upcoming Grief Retreat🤍
