04/01/2024
2023 has been what would seem one of the toughest years for me thus far. A lot of challenges unfolded - many of which I hardly talked about publicly but decided to do so a little in this post as part of my year review and I may do more over the coming weeks as I feel some of my experiences may speak to many others too..
In a few words 2023 was another chapter that can be entitled "Life and its unpredictable Challenges and moving From Fear To Love" 😰🙏😍
Here's some of what I encountered in 2023:
- my health being majorly impacted by HIDDEN MOULD/MOLD in my longterm rental home
- SHOCK, FEAR, PANIC, STRESS etc as my landlord (of then 13yrs) issued me a Section 21 Notice at the beginning of the year which was only 6weeks after I addressed that I AGAIN smelled mould in my home for a lengthy period of time and that my health, wellbeing and income had been affected by it (when i finally tracked back and listed down when the mould smell, the unusual amounts of damp or even leaks had appeared in the flat first, the records went all the way back to 2015!)
- Brainfog and Exhaustion. Lots of it!! And I realised that had been a part of my life for YEARS as well as a condition called PMDD (classified by doctors as related to the female cycle as 'an imbalance of hormones' and declared a disability under the Equality Act 2010 because of its reoccurring & intensely impactful nature). And what I soon learned was how all this is in my case related to the hidden mould and the mycotoxins and how much that impacts the endocrine system -- and therefore your HORMONES and the ability to THINK clearly (in case you're reading this and are unaware: MOULD can cause Brainfog, Anxiety, feeling depressed etc all the way to cell and tissue damage to say the least) and your ABILITY TO COPE.
Tracking all this back I came to realise how long I had UNKNOWLINGLY been battling with all this and how much I just wasn't able until then to get to the bottom of it all or "connect the dots" -- and all DESPITE my super healthy lifestyle (no alcohol or smoking, no junk food, sugar etc - instead lots of clean plantbased food and a shelf full of supplements!)! But the viscous cycle I had partly become aware of some years prior, just countined...
- months of rollercoaster rides with my own wellbeing and starting to piece things together and becoming more and more aware what was actually happening (which in itself was a challenge due to the impact on my endocrine system and abilty to think and anyone who's been exposed to mould for longer periods of time can surely relate to that --- it is often a state of 'mental paralysis' for days whilst the body feels weak and deals with the (myco)toxins!)
- seeking help in many ways in a worldclass city like London realising how BACKWARDS and on fact UNJUST things really are - and how utterly OVERRUN the countless support services actually are!!
- even in 2023 and after having spent a lot of money on professional 3rd party testing to show my landlord (who responded dismissive to the findings!) that what he and his several 'specialist surveyors' classified as "dirt under the floorboards' was ACTUALLY deemed by a professional laboratory as the HIGHEST category of their rating of several mould types!
- this even impacted my 2 furbabies and the lab tests showed raised levels (beyond tolerable) of mycotoxins in urine samples taken from them and myself
- whilst dealing with all this I continued to support my Mum remotely in adjusting her life on her journey dealing with and healing from the cervial cancer diagnosis she had received, speaking to her often daily and for lengthy periods of time
- whenever I could, I refocused as much as possible (and when physically possible for me) on helping my clients by working with them on getting clearer on their own inner world, their inner wounds and their inner child and how profoundly this impacts their current health & wellbeing in a holistic perspective
- my clients achieved great results and I received powerful & heartfelt testimonials from them (which I'm extremely touched by, humbled and proud of! and so was my Mum whenever I had a chance to tell her about it!)
- November came and with that the sudden and shocking news of my Mum passing/transitioning (just when it seemed things started to look up again for me after months of challenges...) and me dealing with the heart shattering pain of losing your Mother 💔
- amongst all this I was learning about the "duties" of a local council, environmental health departments etc and the realisations how institutions like these are actually ruthless, indirectly discriminate and do not act in the "interest of the wellbeing of the public" but in a manner that they cover their own backsides quite frankly and learning that the "justice system" is anything BUT 'JUST'!
- and despite all of the above I managed to complete a Quantum Regression & Integration Certification and start a "Trauma-informed Wellbeing Coach" qualification (which admittedly needs catching up on!) and in addition to that I manged to come back to my HEART and a VISION I held since many years: expand my work and services by starting my first small & bespoke HOLISTIC GROUP COACHING online in December 2023 taking a handful of souls on a journey of healing from within and moving "From Fear To Love" and I also created a regular online meet-up for those who too lost a parent or loved one and want to connect with like-minded people to find support & an empathic space whilst processing the loss...
- 2023 ended for me with my body literally pulling the breaks by me being flat out with a fever and flu-like symptoms for several days - which was only a matter of time really as my sleep has been very unsettled since my Mum transitioned ..
The waves of grief & pain losing my Mum continue to come and a part of me still has not (and may never fully really) 'accept' her having left this physical realm already... Many questions remain unanswered, yet from a Quantum and spiritual perspective I feel her presence around me and right next to the pain in my Heart, there is so much LOVE and GRATITUDE for my Mum, all that I learned from & through her and the memories that remain. 💞 🕊🧘🏼♀️
🙏 Huge GRATITUDE to all of my FRIENDS & CONTACTS near and far who have supported me in 2023 and continue to do so - you all know who you are - Thank You from my Heart, I appreciate all of you and look forward to many happy moments and joyful celebrations in 2024 with you all! 💜🙏 🤗
🙏 And huge GRATITUDE to all my CLIENTS for your trust and vulnerability - I feel honoured that I've been able to contribute to your growth, help you open your hearts, heal from within in order to see improvements & healing in the physical body and I intend & endeavour from my Heart to continue to do so in 2024 and help you grow further! 🙌 💗🙏
🙏 Huge GRATITUDE to the higher powers / Mother Nature / the infinite source of consciousness for keeping my two furbabies well and for allowing us to open our eyes yet again today to see another day! 😻🧘🏼♀️🙏
"May the tears we cried in 2023 water the seeds we planting in 2024" (Quote by 'Playlist')
Much Love, Health and Happiness for 2024 to anyone reading this and to say it with the words of my beloved dear Mum: "Enjoy your beautiful young life!" 💜🙏 🕉
- Namaste -
Kriss
PS: if you have a catfriendly (indoor) and mould-free (!) property in/around London available to rent or know someone who has - or if you're considering to start a house/flat share, please DM me and lets connect 🙌
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