21/05/2026
After 5 days in a beautiful woodland setting with several families, I'm seriously reassessing my desires and wants in life.
We cooked together. Our children of all ages from 1 to 16 played together. We shared our gifts and skills freely. We spoke about the difficulties of raising the next generations in a conscious connected way. There were healing ceremonies and forest school style activities for all ages.
I feel like we've come so far as societies from what is truly nurturing and have forgotten what true wealth really is.
This results in so much ill health for people, stress, overwhelm, burnout, which results in physical dis-ease.
My time away has taught me so much about living closer to nature (part of my dream), and what priorities I truly desire in doing that (a comfy bed and hot and cold running water are truly all I need 🤣)
As a family, we are exploring our options for living offgird. Maybe then I can solidify my new vision for what I desire. Meanwhile, I kinda feel like I'm in some sort of no-mans-land or void state. What do I visualise when I don't know what I'd like to create?
I know what I don't like about the housing situations I've been in in the past and I really don't enjoy the continued pressure to make money to pay someone else's mortgage or appease a lender. Even so-called social housing is a bind of controlling pressure to pay someone else for property often in disrepair. The pressure to do that just takes away from the pure love I have for what I do in service.
I mostly would like to just flow from creative urge to creative urge, be at peace inside which attracts all manner of abundance and wealth, and direct whatever I have into the hands of good people (whether that's money, or food, or my physical energy or intuitive wisdom).
Maybe that is what my new vision needs to be. That feeling of peace and joy is where I'll be focusing my attention more than ever.