26/05/2026
It's hard to believe we're only a few weeks away from the summer solstice. It's prompted me to reflect back.
Just before winter solstice I had a fully booked solstice focused midlife circle. I was really looking forward to this celebration but the night before I started to feel unwell; fatigue, headache, dizziness, feverish. I'd had this before and it often passed with a good night of sleep.
This time though it didn't. I felt terrible when I woke up and knew there was no way I could run midlife circle. My body was giving me a clear sign and there was no option to push through. So, I very reluctantly cancelled the event. And then I crashed.
I knew that taking the Christmas break off wouldn't be enough and with a nudge from my wonderful physio, I decided to take January off and pause holding midlife circle and nature circle.
All the support I had been giving to my eldest had taken a huge toll and it was escalating. So one month off has turned into five months and it has passed in a blur of appointments, meltdowns, advocacy, emails, meetings, and a crystal clear clarity that the current education system does not meet the needs of neurodivergent children.
It's been intense and continues to be. But I write this as I slowly start to emerge with a little more energy to think about other things too. I’m tentatively setting out plans to start running midlife circle and nature circle again after the summer solstice and The Light Retreat will be back in November.
My role for many years, as a complementary therapist and now as a circle facilitator, forest bathing guide and mental health first aider, is to remind people (well mainly women) to slow down, to say no to things, to listen their bodies.
This was my time to be reminded of that. None of us are immune to suffering poor physical or mental health. Thankfully I had people to tell me it was ok, in fact essential, to stop and get help. So take my story as a gentle reminder to you that asking for help and sharing your struggles is ok.
I'm looking forward to offering space again v soon where I use connection, creativity, mindfulness and nature to support you and your wellbeing. Because we all need that.