29/04/2026
Not every task deserves that much emotional weight. Not every meeting is a test. Not every project is a chance to prove my worth. But some old habits don’t disappear just because life has moved forward.
Effort became my safety.
If I worked harder, I felt less behind. If I prepared more, I felt less exposed. If I took ownership, I felt useful. And useful has always felt very close to worthy.
That sentence is not easy to admit.
Because it means my effort is not always pure confidence. Sometimes it is care. Sometimes it is ambition. Sometimes it is excitement. But sometimes it is also fear.
Overexcitement….!!! I have been thinking about this word for a while now. It sounds small, almost harmless. But when it is attached to you, it makes you pause. Especially when, from inside, i…