08/02/2026
I didnβt expect my first post this year to start with tears.
I was given a new designation, and I donβt feel happy about it..
I cried in frustration.
My mind kept spinning. I told them I didnβt want this. It feels unfair. Iβm not the best person for the role. It means more work, less time, and all I really wanted was space to breathe.
And yes, the question came: πΎππ ππ? π° π
ππππππ ππππ πππ.
Hereβs an unpopular thought about resilience: it doesnβt always look brave at first. Sometimes it looks like resistance. Sometimes it sounds like, βThis is hard. I donβt want this.β
At first, I tried to correct myself. I told myself I shouldnβt feel this way because I teach resilience. But the more I pushed my feelings away, the heavier everything felt. So I paused and chose to be gentler with myself. I allowed myself to feel disappointed, tired, and overwhelmed, without judging myself.
Later that day, I felt more calm.
The emotions were still big, but they no longer controlled me.
Iβm not fully ready, and maybe thatβs okay. Iβm slowly choosing acceptance.
Maybe courage is not about wanting the role, maybe itβs about growing into it. Maybe this is another space where I will grow, even if it wasnβt the space I asked for.
Do you ever feel this too? When life hands you something heavy while your hands are already full?
Like you want to say, βTama na munaβ..
Itβs okay. Youβre not weak for feeling overwhelmed. We do not advocate for resilience that shames people for being tired. Resilience is not pretending youβre okay.
πΉπππππππππ ππ πππππππ ππππππππππ πππ
πππππ π
ππππ
πππ ππ ππππ πππππππ
ππππ ππππππππππ, ππππππππππ πππ ππππππππ.
To anyone who feels unready for what was given to them: maybe growth doesnβt wait for perfect timing. Maybe it arrives when we least want it, but need it the most.
Hello, 2026. Iβm still learning, still growing, still becoming.
Letβs embrace real resilience, the kind that allows us to feel and still continue. Aja! Aja!