26/03/2026
"Sometimes we pursue emotionally unavailable people because we are avoiding the most important relationship of all: the one with ourselves.
It is so much easier to outsource the job of loving yourself. To find someone else to do it for you. To make another person responsible for your sense of worth, your sense of belonging, your sense of being enough. To turn them into the solution to a problem that was never actually theirs to solve.
But happiness and fulfillment have always been an inside job. This is not a motivational quote but as a structural reality. Until you begin that work — until you take responsibility for your own aliveness, your own worth, your own capacity to receive love & joy — you will keep finding creative ways to avoid it.
And pursuing someone who cannot give you what you need is one of the most creative avoidances available.
The same way alcohol numbs what it cannot heal, an impossible love story keeps you busy enough that you don’t have to sit with the silence and ask the real question:
What would I have to feel if I finally stopped waiting for that person to be ready?"
—Jovanny Varela, excerpt from Gentle Reminder No 131, "Looking for affection from unavailable people is an act of self-harm: how to clear painful love templates from the bloodline"
Read the full piece: https://bit.ly/looking-for-affection-in-unavailable-people
Artwork by Anastasia Druzhininskay