21/02/2023
The fear of love: why do we have it? Have you ever given your heart only to be disappointed, have you ever committed to someone only to have them break your trust in people, in relationships, in love? We become so fearful of experiencing love and joy and togetherness with someone as a result of these experiences, which have led us to pain and loss in the past, fragmenting us to the point where we cannot put ourselves back together only to be broken again, so we choose to remain broken and avoid these wonderful, loving relationships that may come our way.
When you have been broken so many times, it is hard to believe in love again.
I tell you I've been running away, avoiding committed relationships all my life, and having Venus in Aries in my first house is definitely not easy to hide my heart as I am very passionate and impulsive in love, but with age, I am learning that the cage I was so afraid of is only there if I allow it to be there, actually, the cage was my own perception of love and relationships that meant my fear of abandonment was creating this cage or attracting a partner that made me feel that.
As I found love within myself, I learned to commit to myself first, the problem I see in relationships is people commit to others first, they make the relationship more important than themselves, and they erase their own individual pursuits for the greater good of the relationship, people make so many sacrifices to be in a relationship, they think it's so much work and perhaps they may be right but I think how is it possible to love and care for someone if all your priorities change because of them isn't that self-abandonment? By giving someone your power, you're giving them complete control over what you do and how you do it, and then complaining afterward when that person didn't take good care of you. It's like you give your home keys to someone and then being left out in the cold as you forget yourself, and you suffer the consequences as a result. You may give a spare key to someone, but never make sacrifices for anyone. no one that truly loves in a healthy way will ask you for that and when you finally arrived at this place of trust for yourself and for others you will discover an amazing way to be together, to love, and relate in interdependence. After all, love is not our cage we are the ones caging love!