29/04/2026
To tell you the truth I am drowning a little right now. So many of the mothers I support are struggling - my todo list is a mile long to share and try to help online me and off but my first finals week is upon me with my last classes of my first semester so I just can’t keep up. It’s hard to feel you can’t do it all. With defining my ministry work this first semester I’ve really had to think deep and hard about the WHYs the HOWs and the FUTURE of who I am becoming in what I show up with and provide for the world. My ministry isn’t light and fun, I am diving deep into domestic violence, SA, child protection and breaking down the harmful systems from the inside out. You have a choice when doing this work let it weigh you down to the point you aren’t as affective as you can be or do your very best and keep your whimsy in the process. We are so binary as humans - but the fact remains you CAN do this deep and difficult work while keeping my joy for the special things in you life and for me it’s setting the example to the girls how we show up in a world set out on silencing and taking our joy. There were points in this last five years when I was suicidal because of the things happening to us and the cutting moral injury forced on us in Portugal and at those points I had to make a choice - will I let the darkness win or show up with light that will shine hope for my babies and maybe for others. I obviously chose the light and am so thankful I did now we are so far into our recovery and rebuilding after abuse. I just hope now through my ministry no woman will feel alone on their journey of recovery. So much more to come (when I catch up 😅)