07/09/2026
I spent years thinking I wasnāt doing enough, because I knew I had potential for more
but looking back, I can see that a lot of what I called āhigh standardsā was just perfectionism in disguise
š¦Ā raising the bar every time I got close instead of actually letting myself reach it
š±Ā if I did reach it, skipping celebrating and immediately thinking of the next milestone
šĀ planning my ideas for months instead of putting them out and learning from real feedback (bc God forbid someone had constructive criticism for me)
šŖĀ focusing on how someone with potential should act instead of working with where I was
š rereading captions for the 7th time to improve it instead of accepting that they were already good enough
so if anything, I was just making it unnecessarily difficult to turn potential into progress lol
and the irony?
I thought perfectionism was how Iād become the person I knew I could be (seriously, I used to say āIām a perfectionistā so proudly)
but it was actually the thing keeping me from becoming her
I didnāt need more pressure, I needed more room to try š¤