28/06/2024
A song Birthday Dedication for My Twins From Heaven
12 years ago, i constantly question Allah.
Why he gave me such a test, something i felt so unfair and impossible.
Why choose me and why gave me 2?
Then i remembered allah only gave his hardest test to his toughest warrior.
I powered up my will and strength, took up the role and to be a mother to 2 special need kids.
Alhamdulillah fast forward here we are 12 years later, still surviving although i am not phycially there all the time please know that mummy is always there through sickness and pain.
Especially now when Afreen needs extra medical care and i promise i will work harder to make sure you get everything you need.
I am so sorry that i couldnt easy those bedsores away dear Afreen, it hurts me. I know now everytime you cry is no longer about seeking for attention it is because you are in so much pain.
I spent my days asking myself “is it today their last day?” , “is it tomorrow if i open my eyes i will be downgraded to mother of 2?”.
28 June 2024 is scary to me!
Everybody say i am STRONG but recently i realised that i am NOT. I am very affected by what is going on now.
Thank you for making my birthday wish come true boys, all i wanted was to celebrate your birthday with you guys again.
Mummy dedicate this song to you both, this video will be a way to remind me how lucky i am to be YOUR MOTHER!
I LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUCH ❤️