07/17/2024
Gah. The last 48 hrs. It’s amazing how life can pull the rug..(the illusion of solid ground), pop 🤛 you in the face a few times and then leave you breathless wondering what the F*** just happened. I received REALLY tough news about something I was really hoping for. My pre-teen daughter has energy like a hormonal ping pong ball that bounces around the room. Money is tight and yet I’m always working.
Fold under the weight or follow the flow?? Loose myself in the illlusion of victim or use the struggle as a source of Divine love guiding me all along?
Why post a pic of my salad?? Because it’s part of the story here. I spent many hours crying and feeling into the disappointment and the fear and worry and frustration. BUT- I didn’t go for a long brutal run, instead I did a slow and easy yoga routine, stopping every couple of mins to catch my breath between the sobs. I didn’t hide away in my house but went and surrounded myself with a gentle friend who held space for me and rubbed my back as I talked through things. I spent 30 mins in my kitchen, mindfully preparing nourishing food, knowing that I needed it after all the emotional energy I had used up over the day.
Waking up this morning, nothing has changed about my situation- the news is still the same, I still have a hormonal daughter and I’m still working (instead of relaxing on a beach in Tahiti😂)… but my mind is still. My heart is full. My body is strong.
The still, quiet voice.. the spirit within is whispering “you have everything you need..you are exactly where you are supposed to be. I’ve got you…”
By showing up for myself yesterday- by leaning into the pain, by nourishing my soul AND my body with good people and amazing foods, I am feeling open and expansive… a very good place to be 💚