06/07/2026
I recently watched a documentary about Martin Short who talked about how his career had been 80% failure and he thought that was good odds. I remember feeling inspired by that, recognizing the reality that failure is an inevitable part of life. As I have been stepping into my mediumship in a more professional way, that fear of failure has been walking right beside me. It’s something I’ve working with to understand the nuances of and where it comes from. Ultimately it’s not just about showing and and not being able to delivery validating readings. The whole state of my personal wellbeing and the current circumstances in my life have a profound impact on my ability to be successful in this work. No matter how much I practice working with spirit if I am not in a balanced enough state in my personal life, showing up to do this work can and will be difficult. It’s a question I have been contemplating all along. Can I handle it? Unfortunately the answer is not always a simple yes or no and life is never going to be perfectly balanced at all times. Last night I took a step I’ve been wanting to take for a very long time. I set up a group through a family member to practice doing a gallery style reading. Something I have not done yet. Just making the decision alone was a big step for me. In my mind I was ready for any outcome. I needed to see how I would feel and if I could do the work in that environment at this point in my journey. I was taking care of the fear that was of course there ahead of time and I showed up as ready as I could be. Well, last night I was not ready. I’ve known all along that I’m still operating from a deficit. As a single mom raising my kids and running a household alone my plate is already over full. It has only been in the past year that I have been able to venture out into more with a higher level of capacity. Last night I bit off more than I could chew. I walked into the room and that scared overwhelmed part of me said nope not happening. I made the best of the night and was grateful to be with a very supportive group of women where there was no judgement and amazing support. Was I disappointed in the outcome? Definitely! Was I upset and frustrated facing the truth that I may not be ready to step into this at the level I want to? Absolutely! Will I give up? No way! I can’t ignore the call to do this work but I also can’t ignore the parts of me that are still in need of support and healing. I will be an interesting journey walking forward while honoring both of these sides of me. If you’ve read this far, thanks for listening and I hope when facing your own struggles and failures and you can use them as deeper awareness and information as to how to move forward. One step at a time.
