09/30/2026
Sometimes the hardest part of surrendering is watching things unfold in ways that feel deeply unfair.
The anger. The resentment. The frustration of feeling like you’re carrying the weight of something while life keeps asking you to be patient.
And sometimes, it’s not even just what happened. It’s what you see happening now. The things that stir up old wounds, make you question people’s intentions, and leave you feeling like you’re the only one still hurting.
I’ve realized how easy it is to let those feelings take over. To replay things in my head, search for meaning in someone else’s actions, and give away another piece of my peace trying to make sense of something I may never understand.
But I’m learning that not everything that feels personal needs to become my burden to carry.
I can acknowledge that something hurts without letting it harden my heart.
I can feel anger without letting it turn into bitterness.
I can recognize what feels unfair without allowing it to consume the life God is still asking me to live.
And I can surrender the need to understand someone else’s heart when God is asking me to tend to my own.
This is where faith gets real for me.
Not in pretending I’m unbothered. Not in forcing myself to be gracious before I’m ready. But in bringing the parts of me that are angry, hurt, and exhausted to God—and asking Him to help me respond from a place of truth instead of reaction.
I don’t need to control what someone else does to remain grounded in who God is calling me to be.