10/28/2025
Our ๐๐๐๐๐๐ connects body and mind
Like a ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐๐ ๐ณ๐ฟ๐ถ๐ฒ๐ป๐ฑ bringing the etheric into ๐๐๐๐ and ๐๐๐๐๐.
The โold Amyโ disassociated and disconnected me, would be unable to identify what I needed at any given moment.
So I looked for that connection outside myself - Unconsciously - Not in people, but in my work.
It was a covert addiction and Iโd try to alleviate my loneliness by hatching another 2 dozen chickens, adding goats to the farm, and busying myself with endless chores - as if raising 3 children was not already enough to do. The farm became my obsession, and I loved it.
It was the perfect distraction from the fact my marriage was dead and I had become isolated from everyone.
It felt safe.
It brought me happiness in the moment.
Constantly upgrading my systems, until most things were automatic and my symbiotic little farm functioned like a well-oiled machine and was quite successful.
I rewarded myself with with a bottle of wine after 4pm - and that worked for a couple of years - until it didnโt.
2 new goats for Motherโs Day was the last straw - My then husband announced he wanted a divorce on our 18th Anniversary. May 2017.
Very much a devoted Christian, that divorce rocked me like nothing ever had. My relationship with God was shattered, but the relationship with myself had just begun.
It was the beginning of the dissolution of the illusion, and I am so thankful.
What came next was the subject for another time, but today, whatโs alive is แแแฉTITแแชแด for the opportunity to experience a life fully lived.
I got a โredoโ for the 2nd time in my life (spoiler alert- I fkd it up again!)
The first was a NDE in my 20โs - another story.
Wherever you are today - Itโs not too late. Youโre not too old or too young to live your dreams.
You are exactly as youโre meant to be, doing wht you're meant to do and learning what you're meant to learn.
God is never in a hurry, only our ego is.
This life is just a blink in the realm of eternity.
If you have the gift of breath, you have everything you need.