10/20/2026
Medical trauma is a real thing. Even if it is someone else’s experience, the psychological effects of certain medical events can be very long lasting.
I recently was doing a very simple thing - trying to get a simple prescription refilled. There were some obstacles involved. The doctor was out, the clinic was busy, etc. It was not life threatening, but after two attempts and the weekend passing even more time, the feelings got really big; bigger than they should have been for just trying to get a little extra antibiotic.
By this morning, I was ready to yell at just about anybody. However, knowing what I do about emotional healing, I could tell that these feelings were coming from somewhere else.
It is an undeniable fact that both of my sons’ deaths involved factors of symptoms being overlooked by medical staff, delayed prescriptions, prescriptions perhaps written incorrectly, weekend delays, a plethora of small things that created two perfect storms.
These experiences were horrifying to watch even though at the time, the outcomes were unknown.
I am not one to take the victim stance, nor place blame. I believe to my core that there are no “mistakes” in God’s world, and that each and every one of us leaves this world at exactly the moment we are meant to; not one minute sooner nor one minute later.
However, as a mother, reconciling the unintended negligences that were involved in the death of a child can be very, very complex and difficult.
When the emotional energy erupted, it said “So stupid, so stupid, so stupid!……” for a good minute or two until it finally ran out.
I was ready to tell whomever finally called with news about my prescription that I thought it was stupid that it was so hard to get it. But by the time they called, the emotion ran out, so I didn’t have to vomit the past on a person in the present.
I guess I am telling this story to illustrate how experiences in the present are divinely orchestrated to help us release emotional energy from the past.
Being a human is hard. Being a healing human takes awareness and consciousness.
And I wanted to be heard. We all need to be heard.
I read stories several times a day, so it was my turn to tell one
Thanks for listening friends
May we all be blessed.😇
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