09/14/2026
Oof, this was a rough day. The thoughts and feelings creeping in…I thought I could put it aside just for a bit longer.
My body was telling me I needed to move. That’s how Mercury turns feelings into words for me…exercise, movement, intentional touch.
My natal Saturn sits opposite Mercury, daring him to say something at the risk of sounding stupid or being invalidated. My Saturn fears being embarrassed.
Today the Sun cozied up to my Saturn and told it there would be collaboration. That the vitality I seek would best be found through intentional bursts of energy, stamina, and challenging lifts. The Sun also said that as long as it can use explosive movements that the compromise would be to keep my heart rate at or below threshold. Saturn loves compromise and boundaries.
Through the effort Mercury could put words to my grief: the flashbacks, the inside jokes, the unsent texts.
In this container, grief answered back. It acknowledged me and gave me confirmation that things are ok.
Belinda Carlisle’s “Heaven Is a Place on Earth” on the speaker.
The angel number 111.1 feet of elevation gained on the treadmill, the countdown at 4:44 minutes left when I glanced at it.
The one singular feather at my feet as I stepped out to use the restroom to wipe my forming tears.
I feel better. The energy is moving. It’s all ok. There is only now.