02/03/2025
This is the tipping year!!!
What do I mean by that? Well, I was 14 years old when I began my abusive relationship with Alcohol. Like most abusive relationships, it was not all bad and there was enough of an attraction there to keep me coming back for more. I will not tell more of that story here and now as I would like to draw your attention to the reason I am bringing this up today. Today marks 14 years since my LAST alcoholic drink. Meaning that this is the tipping year. This year more time will have been spend recovering than destroying. More hours spend healing than escaping. More time spent honoring myself than slowly killing myself. It is an interesting concept to ponder.
Today, Sobriety is my normal state. I do not find myself missing drinking, or even being jealous that I cannot partake. I am so grateful to have made the decision to stop drinking 14 year ago. I am even more grateful that I make the same decision over and over every single day. I love the man I am and I honor and respect myself. I strive to become a better version of myself each day.
Sobriety can be terrifying path to follow as it means facing and feeling the mountains of emotions, fears and anxieties of life head on as they arise. Though this path seems daunting as one takes the first few steps, it is actually the easier path. I have faced the some of the hardest days of my life as sober person. Most recently processing the loss of my father. The amount of grief which needs to be processed after a loss like that is enormous. I am grateful to be able to navigate the waves of grief and pain with a clear head and heart. Attempting to bury the pain through substance based escapism would be a silent killer. Attempting to escape into substance abuse would allow the pain to seep into my body, creating energetic scars which would inevitably manifest as discomfort and or disease. Alcohol only prolongs the inevitable and exacerbates emotional pain until it becomes unbearable.Through experience, I have found that is it far easier to face life head on and process and release traumas as they arise.
Today I express my gratitude for my sobriety and the tools by supporting others in their journeys into sober living through mental, emotional and spiritual healing. If you or someone you know are suffering from substance abuse and are ready to make a change, please take the time to explore my website WWW.ONTHELIGHTERNOTE.COM. I do not spend much time on social media these days, so please reach out through the website to connect with me.
With love and gratitude.
