06/14/2026
Crying. Actually.
It’s these random moments where I am just so MAD. I’m so mad that I don’t get to rub his hair while he sleeps forever. I’m so mad I don’t get to see him grow up. Grow older.
I’m so mad he fell asleep in this beautifully donated tomato chair because he can no longer enjoy the things he used to. He can no longer “boy” like his brothers at all times.
&& in one tiny spec, I’m grateful in this moment. Grateful we had another Batten family donate this to Brody, even if it’s purple. We don’t care. 🤧😩 today was the first day he took serious interest in it, and he was clearly comfortable. Grateful he is so soundly asleep. He got his ‘PAD’ after dinner, and fell asleep. On his own. 😭🤧🥹😩
I love him so much. 😭❤️🩹💔🤧😩