06/04/2026
In Jesus Name . I pray for all who suffer and need to know they are not alone . 🤘✝️
A wise woman once told me something I have never forgotten:
People don’t need all the details to pray. Jesus already knows them.
Since receiving that advice, I’ve rarely asked for details when someone is hurting. More often than not, the deepest pain lives in the details.
Naturally, many people have questions surrounding Q’s passing. The truth is… so do I.
When someone is taken suddenly, even those closest to them don’t always have all the answers. Medical answers don’t always come immediately. Sometimes they come months later. Sometimes they never come at all. If you’ve ever lost someone unexpectedly, you understand this painful reality.
I’ve chosen to be intentional with my words because once something is spoken or typed, it can never truly be taken back. I’d rather remain quiet than speculate. I’d rather wait than misspeak.
And if I’m being honest, sharing the “how” makes the reality of his absence feel unbearable.
There are moments when the grief is so overwhelming that my body physically shakes. My stomach turns. Time feels frozen while the rest of the world keeps moving. It’s a pain I never knew existed until I lived it. One that is difficult to explain unless you’ve walked this road yourself.
Through it all, you have carried me in ways you’ll never fully know.
Your prayers. Your messages. Your cards. Your “love mail.” Your kindness.
You have been the hands and feet of Jesus during some of the darkest days of my life, and I will never have enough words to thank you.
There is also a practical side to why I haven’t shared everything publicly. As someone whose livelihood depends on social media, certain topics and keywords can create challenges that many people never have to think about. As a widowed mom raising four children, protecting my ability to provide for my family is a responsibility I take very seriously.
Because of that, I’ve decided to share some of the details surrounding Q’s passing on my personal website for those who have been curious and have walked this journey alongside us.
⬇️ You can read it by commenting “Q” below ⬇️
Writing it was one of the hardest things I’ve done. It required me to revisit moments I would rather not relive. But I’m praying that putting words to the pain is part of the healing.
My world was turned upside down the day we lost Q. There are still questions I may never have answered this side of Heaven.
But I continue to keep my eyes fixed on Jesus.
I don’t have to understand every detail to trust the Author of the story.
I believe with all my heart that God is still working, even in the middle of heartbreak. And while I may never fully understand the “why,” I trust that He will somehow bring purpose from our pain and beauty from our brokenness.
If you’ve ever experienced sudden loss, grief, or unanswered questions, would you do me a favor and share this post? Someone you know may need the reminder today that it’s okay not to have all the answers… and that God is still faithful in the middle of the unknown. ❤️
https://www.crazybusymama.com/q-our-beloved-husband-and-father/
