06/18/2026
"ALWAYS A CHOICE"
Earlier this week, I planned to drive home to the Harrisburg area from Lewistown, where I was visiting with a long-time friend, Beth. We had attended a spiritual retreat in western Massachusetts, after driving there last Wednesday: a six and a half-hour journey. We had participated in meaningful experiences during the three and a half-day retreat. We had met new people and renewed connections with others. We had eaten tasty, healthy meals prepared by others.
The Catholic retreat center where we were had over the years planted and nurtured such an extensive collection of trees, shrubs and perennials that it qualified as an arboretum. A lush setting to connect visitors with nature.
We enjoyed air conditioned rooms while the outside temperatures soared into the 90's along with oppressive humidity. And, on Sunday at noontime, we headed home, anticipating that the long ride would likely involve rain and maybe thunderstorms. We arrived safely back at her home where a rainbow arched over the green hills of Pennsylvania. A beautiful ending to our trip.
After a good night's sleep, I prepared to drive back to the Harrisburg area to return to work. When I got in my car, put my foot on the brake and pressed the start button, nothing happened. Nothing. The battery seemed to be completely dead. A call to AAA assured me help would arrive-- in 1.5-2 hours!!!
Lucky for me, Beth's home offered comfortable patio seating overlooking a green grassy field rimmed with forest trees under a sunny sky with fluffy white clouds floating by. Snacks and cold drinks were available in endless supply. We never exhausted interesting conversations.
Two hours turned into three and the nearly to four! When my patience wore thin and my frustration started to turn my sunny disposition to resemble the darkening sky above, threatening to drive us inside to shelter. Beth reminded me that we always have a choice to become irritated and to grumble in disappointment and impatience. Or... we could focus on what was good in our situation.
We were safe. We were not stranded on a busy highway in bad weather or in the middle of a dark, stormy night. We had refreshments. We had access to a clean, functional bathroom. We had each other to share the experience. We had two working cell phones and access to charge them. We really had much more than what we needed.
And... we had a choice to be grateful for what we had or to become unpleasant and testy by focusing on what we lacked, especiallywhen we are grieving. The same choice presents itself to us multiple times a day... in matters of great importance and in matters mundane. We often do not get to choose what is happening to us, but we always have the choice to make about how we respond to what is happening around us.
We might be grieving a very significant loss. We might be feeling incapable of coping with our grief. We might be scared or angry or lonely or confused or overwhelmed. No matter what we are feeling, we get to choose our response. We can lash out at others. We can withdraw and isolate. We can blame others for our loss. We can shout or cry or express our emotions in any variety of behaviors.
If you are finding it difficult to choose behaviors that are authentic and helpful, please consider reaching out to one of our grief counselors. We can listen to your feelings and assist you to choose behaviors that are healthy; ones that will move you to authentic expression of your grief. A phone call to 717-234-2555 will connect you to a caring and competent grief counselor. This is a free service available to you. We hope you will use it to facilitate progress on your grief journey.
-- Written by Dot Everhart,
Hospice Chaplain and Grief Counselor