08/10/2026
Final Externship Diary — Afterward
It has been a couple of days since the Arkansas EFT Externship ended.
And I’m realizing that an experience like this doesn’t really end when the room empties.
There is so much to take in. So much that was learned, witnessed, felt, and experienced. Our nervous systems need time to catch up—to assimilate what happened before we rush back into our lives, our work, and our therapy rooms.
I’m learning to give myself that time.
And as things begin to settle, I keep thinking about what an EFT Externship actually asks of us.
Yes, we are learning a model. We are learning attachment theory, the negative cycle, emotion, interventions, enactments, and a roadmap for helping people find their way back to one another.
But underneath all of that, EFT asks something much more personal of the therapist.
It asks us to be affected.
To be able to move toward emotion rather than away from it. To sit close to fear, grief, longing, shame, helplessness, and vulnerability—and allow ourselves to feel what is happening without becoming lost in it.
And that means we have to know something about those places in ourselves, too.
We have to be willing to notice what happens inside of us when someone else’s pain enters the room. What we reach toward. What we pull away from. What frightens us. What touches something tender. What makes us want to rescue, fix, retreat, protect, or disappear.
That is Self of Therapist work.
And it isn’t something we finish.
It becomes an ongoing practice of knowing ourselves well enough that we can bring our whole selves into the room without making the room about us.
That may be one of the things that moved me most about watching this externship unfold.
Over four days, something happened.
People didn’t simply learn EFT.
Many of them allowed EFT to reach them.
At the end, when participants were invited to share what the experience had meant to them, the room became very quiet.
Some people couldn’t speak.
You could see them holding back tears.
And others chose to speak anyway—with tears streaming down their faces—as they shared what these four days had opened up in them, personally and professionally.
Sitting there listening, I thought:
This is why.
This is why this work matters.
Because before we can ask our clients to risk vulnerability, we have to understand something about the courage vulnerability requires.
Before we can accompany people into the places they have spent years protecting, we have to develop the capacity to stay present when those places appear.
We don’t get to stand outside of this work.
We are in it, too.
And perhaps that is part of what makes EFT so extraordinary.
It gives us a sophisticated clinical model, yes.
But it also continually invites the person who is practicing it to grow.
The externship ended a few days ago.
The learning didn’t.
Maybe that’s the final lesson I’m taking home from Arkansas:
The work we hope to facilitate in others asks something of us first.
And I think I will be reflecting on that for a very long time.
P.S. The Arkansas EFT Externship may have ended (for now… until next year!), but The Diaries are just getting started. We have some pretty exciting things ahead—Success in Vulnerability, more workshops, Core Skills, and wherever this EFT journey takes us next.
Stay tuned. There’s so much more to come.