05/19/2026
One month and a few days postpartum… This is the real post.
The last 33 days have been far harder than I could’ve ever imagined. Harder in ways I didn’t expect and at volumes I wasn’t ready for. My nervous system is not nearly as resilient as I thought it was nor is my pelvic floor apparently. I have wanted my whole life to be a mom and waited so many long years for this baby and yet I find that the Lowe’s have transparently outweigh the highs since she was born.
The challenges feel endless and ever evolving. I know the days will get easier as her smiles grow, and her personality shines, and as the overnight sleep windows, eventually, please God, lengthen. But for now, motherhood has humbled and rocked me in a way that’s hard to put words to and even harder to summarize when someone asks “how are you doing?“
You can prepare with all the books and all the podcasts and all the courses… By talking to other moms and joining all the groups on Facebook but one thing I’ve learned is that postpartum can be hard 1 million different ways and we all have our own unique combination and our own unique postpartum bingo card (I’m going for blackout). Continued in comments…
