09/14/2021
Can you believe it? This is me! My smile reaches my eyes and I’m a healthy functioning human being again. I’ve missed you and I can’t express how much your emails and message meant to me these past few months. Even when it may have seamed like I fell off the face of the planet.
I’m okay…more than okay. I learned a number of things about myself that I can’t wait to share. One of of which is why I disappeared from your inbox.
It’s simple really. I couldn’t hold the space for anyone else to heal while I was healing myself. I barely had enough energy to brush my teeth, so sitting down at the keyboard was like climbing Everest. I had so little to give, that I knew it had to go to me. But here’s the really cool part- I can now share with you what I learned.
It’s critical to fill your own tank first. It’s not optional- not an I’ll get around to taking care of myself at some future point, when every other crisis in my life has been averted or dealt with. Because you can only show up for others when you’re fully locked and loaded. Here’s another sneaky little truth. If you don’t make the time, your body will do it for you and wham-o you’re hit with an illness, physical or mental. It’s a warning system.
So the #1 thing I learned from my depression is to surrender.
Believe me I wanted to control it in the worst way. If I could shove it in a corner and deal with it later, I would have. If I could barrel through it and not have to put in the hard work, I would have. If I could pretend everything was alright and by shear will power make it go away, I would have.
The more I tried to control the change happening to me, the more lost and overwhelmed I felt. Trying to control it left me feeling bogged down in sadness, fear, anger and scared to death.
I knew I wanted to feel safe, have life flow easily and once again feel happiness bubbling up and out of me, like a beautiful wave.
Surrender is what brought me to safety, bliss and growth. Surrender isn’t about losing control, but opening up to possibilities that you’ve never dreamed of. Let’s face it, our inner control freak wants bliss, but only knows fear.
And life is full of the unexpected. Change happens either to us or we willingly seek it to make our lives better. I want to help you navigate this change in a way that makes you feel safe, strong and confident.
I’m opening up my women’s group coaching experience Soul Compass. There are only 8 slots available and we meet virtually for 1.5 hours for 8 weeks beginning October 7th. If you want to know more type PDF in the comments and I'll send you information.
If you’d like to be a part of this amazing group, message me let me know you want in. The slots are filled on a first come-first served basis. The impact is life changing and the relationships your make last a lifetime.
My original Soul Compass group still meets monthly and we’re going on a retreat in October to northern Minnesota. I love that they’ve bonded in this way and continue to support each other. It’s exactly what I wanted to have happen- a tribe to support each other through thick and thin.
It’s good to be back. And I want to answer any questions you have about my depression journey. If you want to know something- simply ask in the comments and I’ll share my experience.
In love & light ~Kirstin
P.S. If both you and a friend join Soul Compass together you each save $100, so share this email and the PDF with your favorite spiritual running buddy!!
