09/03/2026
Botox day at 8:30am. “Have your allergies or meds changed since yesterday?” Too many appointments…🤪 it’s been over three months and my spasticity at night is pretty unbearable. I was hoping that today’s Botox would begin to alleviate some of this pain and discomfort. Two medical students came in before the doctor and I’m usually open to this, but today, I really just wanted to have a one-on-one. I answered their questions. I got weepy probably due to sleep deprivation and when the doctor came in. Her disposition was different than the last handful of appointments. She presented my case as being hopeless and said we’ve tried everything and I was ready to get my shoes on and leave, but I proceeded with the injections. Managing chronic pain is beyond words. I’m exhausted, I’m sad and I feel alone.