Life and Mindset After Baby Loss

04/21/2026

Today 21st of April is AnaBella's 8th birthday.

Its been very tough, the building up to this one date, wondering if I can do this.

It seems like I didn"t cry it all out the day she died.

Tears are endless. I had to tell myself to breath as I cried.

8 years later and grief can just crush your soul a little bit more.

No lessons from the past can prepare you for its visit.

Happy birthday my beautiful eight year old. Daddy and mami baked you Mary Berry"s lemon drizzle. Today we will toast you with a gift that Mila gave us and we will go have mexican food.

Your party in heaven must be with no words beautiful.

Only God knows how deep my love is for you.

Wait for me my girl, this race is still on and I have work to do still on earth.

Love always, mami

04/17/2026

Our support group was invited to the Kindness Festival during March this year. We shared ❤️ our daughter's stories with the World.

Curiosity arose from the crowd, mostly on how we survived all these years while carrying the pain of experiencing the death of our daughters.

We have managed it through friendship and support through the awful sometimes repetitive dips of grief.

My support group, The Blue Daisies saved me. I dont know how I could have been able to navigate these 8 years without their support.

For 2 years we have been writing a book of our stories, of the friendship ❤️ that through lows and high's exists.

For me this month is tough, AnaBella's birthday is next 21st of April, already we are less than a week away and grief is doing its best.

Hugs and prayers to all that are living this journey, remember we are not alone. There are so many of us.
With love, Dacil

10/15/2025

01/25/2025

This month I went to visit my family in Florida.

It had been 7 years since Id last seen them.

Relationships, feeling misunderstood, sadness, so many complex feelings after AnaBellas death.

Sometimes Relationships can be repaired sometimes its not up to you.

12/31/2024

This time of the year reminds us constantly of their absence.

AnaBella would be 6 years old.

When I think on what she would look like, she would have lost some teeth, skinny, cute little face and a huge personality.

Just writing about it makes me teary. When I blew my bday candles on boxing day I wished I could see her.

Its been so long since I saw her in my dreams.

This is the reality of a bereaved mother during the Christmas season, every year without fail.

Grief always strikes.

Much love to all mommas

Dacil

05/01/2022

To all babies gone too soon, to their mothers, to all loss Mommas!yours 💔❤️‍🩹🙏🏻

10/18/2021

3 x 2 minutes daily ❤️‍🩹BREATHING WITH AWARENESS🌅 many more tips to follow up next week❤️‍🩹 A good start into this week❤️‍🩹 with Love to this beautiful Community of survivors 💌🌊 pregnancylossawareness

10/06/2021

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09/01/2021

Every day we live with grief and we embrace it,so that we can start healing on our own pace ❤️‍🩹 💝🌅