09/05/2026
๐๐โ๐ ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐ฒ๐ป ๐ญ๐ฎ ๐๐ฒ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ ๐๐ถ๐ป๐ฐ๐ฒ ๐บ๐ ๐บ๐ผ๐บ ๐ฝ๐ฎ๐๐๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐ฎ๐๐ฎ๐. I can still picture myself next to her hospital bed facing the ocean near Mercy hospital. I'm sitting in an uncomfortable position as I sat as close as I could to her, holding her hand. Her body was slowing down yet her will to live kept her going. Tonight though was different, I felt it. It was around midnight when I knew this was her last night with us, I just didnโt know when.
Evenings were my turn to stay so my dad and brother could go home. We took turns so she wasnโt ever alone. I enjoyed our alone time. I could share Reiki with her which helped her to relax. My mom was a devout Catholic, yet, she learned Reiki 1 at my first retreat with my friend Libby in Costa Rica in 2013.
While I shared Reiki with my mom, I invited Mother Mary into the room to connect with my mom and invite her home. I told my mom it was okay for her to go and be with Yoli. I'll take care of dad.
Eventually my eyes began to close and when I awoke, my momโs spirit had left. All that remained was her physical body. I cried when I awoke and continued to hold her hand. As it was the middle of the night, the staff was slow in reaching the hospital room after being alerted about her change in vitals. I stayed with my mom until they came, then I stepped out of the room to call my dad and brother.
Even though itโs been 12 years, there are still days that I miss her and my sister intensely, who has been gone 16 years. I know itโs my grief in motion and the intensity has decreased over time. What also helps me move through grief is Reiki. I begin my day with the Reiki principles and connect with my purpose. Their healing journey has inspired mine. I've learned that no matter what I come across on my life's path, my spiritual team is right next to me. My team now includes my mom and sister.
What helps you move through grief?
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