04/06/2024
Man, it's been a while... & I don't really vibe with the absence. But sometimes, we just can't help it.
For me, I needed a break because I lost focus of my true purpose.
(And tack on the fact that I had to move, so that reallllly took away my focus, but here we are. All moved in & ready to carry on)
But let me not digress & get back to it..
The past few years have been exceptionally revealing to me in what I need to heal & move through.
The experience of losing my mother, covid (let's not forget the emotional damage it has done well as physical) & walking with my twin sister in her breast cancer, lymphoma & stem cell journey with her..
They all displayed one MAJOR part of MYSELF that I had not realized was EVERYTHING.
I had been coasting my entire life without really looking at myself, like REALLY looking in the mirror.
No nose or b**b job could make me see it, it only masked it.
I hid behind the voice of others as to not ruffle feathers.
Not speaking my own truth.
I stayed in relationships & environments out of comfortability when they were really toxic.
But what was I actually doing??
What exactly am I showing my daughter??
My partner.. or most importantly..
To ME.
There comes a time where you say to yourself..
Enough is enough.
The MAIN theme here is SELF LOVE.
Having enough respect for yourself to speak your truth unapologetically (but respectfully)
To accept yourself just as you are in God's creation.
To be bold & hold yourself with high regard in your decisions & what you DESERVE.
That coasting mentality is so lame.
It's a cop out & we are all meant for so much more.
And it doesn't matter when you figure it out..
Just start.
(And btw, after I had my implants removed, I saved them to show my girl as a reminder to LOVE YOURSELF AS YOU ARE)
So as I continue to walk on my journey of Self love the purpose it to authentically share my truth, inspo & tools to help you as they do for me.
I love you. 💜
