I don't share my life like this. So, here it goes with all the tears I will shed while writing. I want to share it with all of you. I feel if I can do this, then anyone can. I know we all hear this, but I have a love affair with food. LOL, true story people. It started when I was a preteen. I wasn't ever happy with my body. My parents loved us girls. I was raised with love and I mean love of food.
I would come home from school and grab a snack, not fruit but chips or crunchy cheese curls and I loved those crunchy cheesey curls!! Needless to say , I gained weight. When I was about 18/19 I joined "Jenny Craig" . I was super proud of myself and lost at that time 75 pounds. Later on When I met my boyfriend/husband I was at a good weight and was super happy with myself. Then after our marriage we left the state and went to Texas. I became very depressed while in Texas. I missed my Family, Mom, Dad, and yes my sisters. I very much missed my best friend Shelly. During our time there I began to eat they way Texans do, unhealthy! I sunk into a big depression. Jerry was really my only friend there, I clung onto him. Late 1992, I became pregnant, we were so happy. Oh boy, I ate and I was encouraged by my mother-n-law to eat what I wanted. After the news of my pregnancy my mother had become very ill, she had many strokes in a small time frame. I ate just a little bit more, really didn't know how to soothe myself. We left Texas and headed back to Ct. I became glued to my mother. We lived with my parents while Jerry searched for a job. A bit after being home , Jerry found a job in Middletown,CT.In March of 1993 our daughter was born in. At the birth of our daughter I weighed 370 pounds. That weight burned a hole in my heart.During this time I did contemplate weight loss surgery. You know what, I thought that was giving up. I know some have had it done, I just couldn't do it. I put the weight on myself I needed to get rid of it myself. Then came the beginning of many diets for me. Low fat,low carb, Atkins, low sugar, potato diet, pasta diet, popcorn diet. Well I am sure there were many more. With these diets came the years I will never forget. From 1993-1998 I lost, my Nana,Mom,Uncle Nate, Aunt Iris, Johnny. Much sadness brought some more weight to my body. I lost then gained and well you know what happens with yo-yo diets. In 1995 I became a vegetarian and loved life. I also cut out pasta and rice. The reasons were because I couldn't stop eating them,like normal people. In 2015 I am weighing substantially less. When my journey is close to being where I want to be, I will post what I have lost. In January 2015 I started what I BELIEVE to be the last yo-yo I will ever with play again. I now drink Shakeology once a day and use the beachbody dvds These two items have been a life saver. I say these things because I have never ever ate and felt completely satified on a program before. The 21 day fix comes with cute little containers to measure out your food in. The beach body dvds come with a person to modify the workout with. You know the person with the bad back, well can't do what everyone else does. I must say," I LOVE THEM!" Working out is fun and I get sweaty. Apparently, sweating is a good thing! LOL, only during a few things:}
So, I welcome you to come on this journey with me. For as long as it takes, I will work by hardest and hey I am human. There might be a moment or two along the way were one becomes weak. This program actually allows for this! I have also joined the biggest loser at work.We weigh in on Thursdays. I will post my ups and downs. Welcome aboard my journey, it will be good old fashioned hard work.
