02/18/2025
I am so grateful for this beautiful testimonial.
"The other major thing that happened this week was my session with a woman named Lisa Schermerhorn. I had been experiencing some kidney/ureter pain along with a debilitating kidney stone. I proceeded to call my friend Dr. Christiane Northrup and she informed me tha that kidneys are associated with fear and after directing me to Lisa. In my session with Lisa, we got right to the heart of the matter. She took me back to the first moments of fear in my life, back to birth, when I first saw my father. Then we had a meeting with my father where I expressed what his sexual abuse, control, and manipulation had done to me and how I was still living under that fear today. Because he was in his spiritual form (he died 10 years ago), I could see that he already knew everything. He had already been able to process what his life on earth had wrought. He sat, humbled, a broken man, hardly able to look me in the eye… “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.” Then Lisa asked me what I wanted to say back. Now here is the moment of truth, because I’m sitting there with both my Higher Self and my child self going through this once in a lifetime confrontation, so we all know what’s going on. The child self with all of his limitations said, “Not good enough. Too much pain. Too much loss. I’m holding onto this grudge forever and now you owe me something that’s bigger than all the pain you caused.” But the Higher Self immediately caught on to the Jedi quantum move Lisa was guiding me through — little Jeff’s reasoning was like drinking poison expecting the other person to feel pain. The attitude was hurting only me…that justice in the universe is not tit for tat, sometimes it involves forgiveness for the purposes of moving on. A recognition that there was a higher purpose in what happened to create something even better.
I forgave him. I forgave my father for the soul murder and the misdirection that nearly killed me. I saw the road in front of me clearly: either hold onto the resentment and be forever living in a state of victimhood or forgive him and no longer have his shadow hanging over me. I wept. But I also felt a freedom I had never felt before in my life. The pain in my kidneys/ureter dissipated. I felt a new permission to relax and even let go. I walked out on the golf course and played a tournament without any of the soul gripping fear that normally accompanies competition. I was able, for the first time since I can remember, to take a backswing on the crucial 17th and 18th holes with all the patience and wherewithal to deliver the club to the ball without fear of hitting it out of bounds or into the water. And the icing on the cake was that I won the tournament because of all the net and actual birdies I made."
Jeff Witzeman
Award-winning filmmaker, musician, speaker and writer.
