05/09/2026
No glam, staging, lighting, fancy editing or good angles here…just me in my grind getting 10 overhead presses with 75 pounds for the first time. My entire body was shaking in the end and that last rep was everything I had in me to get lock out up top.
I’m here building strength I never knew I was capable of which feels so fu***ng amazing, empowering, it has me hungry for more! And yet in the midst of all that goodness I still find myself comparing my body to seemingly flawless physique’s (whatever flawless means right?)
to contemplate not posting pics or videos because of the perception I have about being physically “flawed”, not liking the way I look…I mean WTF! Here I am doing lifts and pulls and pushes in my 40’s that I’ve never done before and instead of fully celebrating that, I’ll judge my body for what it looks like. I share this because I know I’m not alone here and the struggle is real. I have come a long way in this arena but the self judgement still comes, a little softer now but still there.
I’m really working on fully prioritizing what I am able to do and achieve opposed to how I look. Not holding back anymore just being real in the journey.
