Refined in the Fire Gestalt Coaching

08/22/2026

Curious about ways to mitigate pain or chronic symptoms including anxiety 🫪?
Along with Gestalt I am a Certified Pain Reprocessing Therapy Practitioner. And I can tell you from personal experience it's worth it!
We can do sessions just about anywhere. Virtual 🖥️, in nature 🏞️ and even with the 🐴's.

07/31/2026

The Gift of Free Will and Healing

Today I was trimming my mule's feet while he stood on the pedestal—completely by his own free will.
I couldn't help but think about healing. Neither of us were able to do this a year ago. Me physically and him emotionally.

I realized I had been carrying a limiting belief about what healing meant. To me, healing meant being completely recovered—back to the way I was before, or even better. If I still struggled or still had hard days, then maybe I wasn't really healed.
But I'm beginning to see healing differently.

Healing isn't always about returning to who we once were. It's about becoming more whole. It's an ongoing process of restoration, growth, and choosing, day after day, to participate in what brings freedom.
Merlin wasn't forced onto the pedestal. He willingly participated in something that would ultimately benefit him.

I wonder if God invites us into healing the same way.
He doesn't force transformation on us. He offers the invitation. We choose whether we'll step onto the pedestal, trust Him through the uncomfortable moments, and allow Him to continue His work in us.

This reminds me of Romans 12:2:
"Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind..."

Maybe part of healing is allowing God to renew not only our hearts, but also our beliefs about what healing truly is.

Maybe healing isn't a destination we finally arrive at.

Maybe healing is simply saying "yes" to God today... and then choosing to say "yes" again tomorrow.

What does healing mean to you?

07/21/2026

When "You Have More to Do"
Became "You Should Be Doing More"

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." — Jeremiah 29:11

This week, I survived anaphylactic shock after being stung by several wasps.
Within minutes, my body began shutting down. I wanted to move, but I couldn't. I could barely speak. I was turning blue. Today, I'm alive.
And that truth has been difficult to absorb.
As I've processed everything that happened, I've realized something.
This wasn't just about surviving a medical emergency.
It uncovered a story I've been living for years.
About ten years ago, after another severe allergic reaction, I sensed God whisper these words to my heart:
"You're okay. You're not alone. You have more to do."
Somewhere along the way, I changed His words.
Instead of hearing...
"You have more to do."
I began hearing...
"You should be doing more."
Those are two very different messages.
Over the past few years, I've lost a career I loved due to health, sold the farm that held so much of my heart and soul, got married, started a new job that provides security but doesn't fully align with my core values, and rebuilding my health.

From the outside, people see the logo, the horses, the workshops, and the dream.
What they don't see is the grief.
They didn't see me wondering who I am without the life I'd spent over twenty years building.
Looking back, I don't think I was chasing a purpose.
I think I have been running from the fear that I would never matter again.
But God has never spoken to me through fear, guilt, or scarcity.
His message always began with His presence.
"You're okay."
"You're not alone."
Only then came...
"You have more to do."

Perhaps that is the "more" God spoke about all those years ago.
Not accomplishing more.
Not striving more.
Not proving more.
But becoming MORE of the woman He has been shaping through every loss, every transition, every unanswered question, and every unexpected beginning.

The truth is... Purpose isn't something we earn. It unfolds as we faithfully walk with the One who has never left our side.

If you are are walking through a season where everything about your identity seemed to change, I hope this encourages you.
Your greatest loss doesn't have to be the end of your story. God's plans are never interrupted. We just can't see the whole story yet.

🔥 Reflection from the Fire
What in your life is being refined—not ruined?
I'd love to hear your thoughts in the comments.

05/30/2026

After getting the horses feed from Top Noch Feed We went next door some tasty food for us. 🥩

05/30/2026

Best place to get our animal feed and supplies! Super helpful and knowledgeable! ❤️🐴

05/10/2026

04/22/2026

Welcome to Our new home at Harried u-pick-umm Farm. I have been busy putting up a new pasture. Join me on a short tour of the horse area.

04/15/2026

Hello. I think it’s easy to miss how well you are doing in the midst of it all.

04/14/2026

God's Waiting Room
There’s a kind of waiting that is stretchig me.
Not the peaceful, trusting kind…
but the kind that brings up doubt, restlessness, and questions I didn’t expect.
I’ve been there lately.
In the in-between.
Where things aren’t falling apart… but they’re not fully coming together either.
And I’m realizing—
maybe this isn’t a pause.
Maybe it’s preparation.
Maybe God’s waiting room isn’t empty…
maybe it’s sacred ground for becoming.
If you’re in a season like this, I see you. 🤍
You don’t have to force your way out of it.
But you also don’t have to sit in it alone.
The horses and I are here to walk with you🐴❤️

“But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength…” — Isaiah 40:31

Photo credit: ShortHorseStudios.com
Horse: Jojo -former horse coach here at RFC. Currently retired at Crazy H Ranch.