Bennie Baxter, End of Life Doula

09/05/2025

08/12/2025

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07/22/2025

This August and playing in a limited number of theaters, audiences can see the Sign O' the Times concert film on Imax screens.

07/20/2025

When the product speaks for itself… and the customer stays silent forever. 💀⚰️
⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ – “No complaints from Grandpa” hits different.

06/28/2025

I want more time

Grief is a teeter-totter
Grief can't seem to make up it's mind
Grief has a million different colors
One minute I am fine... moving through my day like I always have... and then something will trigger me... and I cry...
I find myself curled up in a ball on my couch
I feel very child-like and sometimes a little alone
Even though I know I am not
I am reminded
AGAIN
How much time I wasted
I so badly want a do-over
I want more time
I want more time
I want more time
And then there I go again... cleaning my house
watching tv, making something good to eat
I even laugh and sometimes I smile
I might take a call from a friend... I might choose not to
I know I am not alone
I know others have been through this
This isn't the first time
It won't be the last
As I grieve the loss of someone I love
I remind myself to smile
I go back into my heart and pull out a memory
Savoring all of its beautiful parts
And then I tuck it away... safe... for later
As I know I will need to go back there again
Often
I want more time
I want more time
I want more time
I am not alone
I am sad... but I am not alone
And that comforts me
Grief is chaotic, and crazy, sometimes moody, and it is also...
the reaction we feel when we lose someone we love
Maybe I like grief... just a little...
Because it reminds me that I was gifted love
And I love... love
A lot

xo
Gabby

You can find this poem in my book “It Never Gets Easier to Say Goodbye,” which is a book of poems about life, death, and grief.
Link to book:
https://www.amazon.com/Never-Gets-Easier-Say-Goodbye/dp/B0DY4VJLFM