09/01/2020
My husband and I found ourselves sitting in a courtroom once again defending our rights to build our family a home on property we own. It’s been a longgggg and frustrating process.
See, in our case the town actually agreed and approved our application almost 2 years ago. However, there are 2 unhappy individuals with that decision and continue to delay (and I say delay because we will ultimately build our home) the process.
As I sat in the courtroom and listened to the opposition lie while under oath I could feel my anger increasing and most definitely my blood pressure rising. I wanted to understand how 2 people could have so much fight in them for a situation that didn’t deserve a tenth of what’s been going on. It just seems like the punishment is not fitting the crime.
In that moment of wonder, I took notice that I no longer held the faith that this situation is requiring. Is this a test? Is this how God and Universe want to test our resilience? I sat there so confused, so upset, feeling so abandoned.
I have pleaded and cried with source energy more times than I can count. I have begged for this to be over and for God to bring us the finality of this situation. And yet here I sat, with no answers no solution once again.
I released my anger with a long exhale and said Ok, this is now in your hands. However you see this situation playing out is exactly how we will accept it. Maybe we’re being shown how patience leads to fulfillment. Maybe our lesson is timing and
that nothing happens before it’s time. And possibly testing our faith, to show us that having true faith in something bigger than yourself is trusting that it’s all being taken care of even whole your asleep. Releasing the need to control and letting go.
So now we wait... We wait 2 weeks for the judge to deliver her decision. My husband and I both landed on the same page after court yesterday. That in the end we gave this everything we had and if there is a bigger, better plan in store for our family, we will welcome it with an open, loving, faith holding heart. 🏡