01/25/2026
Life has stretched me wide, so very wide lately. As the year of the snake rounds its final corner, Life has asked me to surrender to the shed, over and over again.
Shedding is not forgetting. It is not getting rid of or casting out. That skin was a part of me. Energy can never be destroyed, it simply changes form.
The hair I cut, the years and years of my life woven into it, I buried and gave back to the earth. A funeral and an honoring for all the women, the me’s, that lived in that hair.
Finding my life partner, pregnancy, birth, motherhood, losing my parents, and all the smaller moments in between.
“All welcome around the hearth of my heart”.
Holding my grandmothers hands, singing to her and witnessing the gradual release of her life force. Another goodbye, or until we embrace again.
Life handing me an AND after AND after AND. How much more can this body be with? The elasticity of my capacity is wearing thin.
Ice storms and ICE storms that rock the boat of my nervous system and break my heart.
And still I stand, out stretched and splayed wide, holding ALL of it. I don’t believe Life is trying to beat me down, but open me wide, to the power of love that is the bedrock of resilience.
It’s not easy and there is pain, sadness and anger in the “contractions” and that sometimes makes me wonder what the F Life is trying to birth.
Honestly, I don’t know and for now I am just going to focus on what’s in front of me in this moment, “the next right thing” (we have watched a LOT of Frozen lately), the deep breaths that bring relief, hugs that regulate my nervous system and remind me I don’t walk this Life alone.
If the ALL of Life is feeling particularly challenging right now, I feel you. Holding you tight and praying for rest and resourcing as we navigate it all.