10/01/2023
Flashback to my cheffy days. Memories I’ll always cherish. 👋🏻 if you’re new here you may not know while my focus is gut health, nutrition, all the ways I can help women on their own health journeys I wasn’t just an IG “chef” I genuinely worked in the Industry for 10-15 years. When I stepped away I was about as high as most aspire to go in the field, and as a women I was proud of that, but I knew I also wasn’t laying up at night dreaming about food pairings ans plate presentation anymore.
My path pulled me in the direction I was needed and I know every hardship I endured I actually had asked and prayed for when looking back. I had asked for growth, change, love in my life and a career I was passionate about. And I had promised if I was just guided towards that, I’d return the blessing and do everything in my beings power to help others.
What I didn’t realize was that promise also meant I had to endure pain, a stripping of my ego, my body spit out one side health wise and I had to use every bit of myself to come out the other, not to look a certain way or be on stage or collab with other influencers, but to have a bottomless well of internal empathy and know what it’s like just to be grateful for my health again.
To have dinner with others again
To be able to eat again without pain, bloating, nausea.
To not be so inflamed my face is unrecognizable and have my weight creep up on 600-900 calories steadily.
To look pregnant but be told infertile.
To lose jobs and sell my home to pay medical bills and for labs that don’t help at all,
Only to be referred out and basically told I did this to myself, knowing there was a deeper root cause that was going overlooked (my issues track back now that I’m aware to wellllll before bikini competitions were even a thing at all).
To get through that then turn around and serve inflammatory foods, expose myself to endless levels of stress and chemicals, wreck my circadian rhythm, and then deliver the same to others.
I couldn’t do it.
But what I can do after going through all of this is help hands on heal others. I can share my knowledge but also have an endless well of empathy. I can care for us both. I can be love embodied.
