08/15/2022
Screw the voice in your head that tells you that you’re not enough.
You’re not smart enough. Not fit enough. You don’t make enough money. You don’t do enough. You're lazy. You sleep in too late.
What is enough? When is enough? When will it EVER be enough? When has it ever BEEN enough?
Isn’t it all relative anyway? Like what’s enough for you doesn’t feel like enough for me.
For someone training for a marathon, a 3 mile run doesn’t feel like enough, but for someone who’s never run a mile in their life, it’s MORE than enough.
Don’t you see? “Enough” isn’t something of inherent, measurable value. It's not a word that can stand on its own. For something to be “enough” it must be in context.
Enough for who? Mom? Dad? Your friends? People on the internet you don't really care for yet care about what they think of you? Enough to qualify you for a specific job? Enough experience for you/others to feel confident in your abilities? Still relative.
Look beyond the wall you’re standing behind. Peek outside the cage you’ve trapped yourself in. When will you have FINALLY had enough?
But really, when will you be ready to DECIDE that it’s time to let go and change? And when will you finally do it? This is something that only you can answer for yourself.
“Just do it already" you tell yourself. It’s scary & uncomfortable which makes the temptation to stay in the cozy discomfort—your current situation—too great. Down we go into a self-shaming spiral of perceived “weakness” & the cycle begins again.
This is why it’s important to recognize the pivot point in the actual moment you arrive. Acknowledge the fear & discomfort of that decisive moment - understand that you may also feel this on the other side of the 'scary' choice.
For your sake, choose it anyway.
There will always be pain involved w/ detaching from the old self; disassociating from the image/identity that you upheld & letting go of the esteem, validation, approval, & distraction they've given you.
Now you're one step closer.
And when you look back at each step you’ve taken, after you’ve taken it, you’ll see—clear as day—that the only way to overcome pain is the pursuit of growth through it.
And only you can choose it.