09/03/2026
I have a recurring dream. In this dream I'm walking the hallways of the Experimental Theater Wing at NYU where I spent 4 very potent years of my life, and I'm trying to remember where things are. I wake up from this dream feeling a strong sense of anxiety because my memory is failing me and I can't remember the details of my life.
Last Saturday we dropped our youngest at college to start his own journey at NYU, and with wristbands that allowed us access to buildings, I dragged my clan with me to the 2nd floor of Tisch School of the Arts to walk the hallways of my old home, but this time, in real life.
As I snake my way through doors that lead to this back stage and that studio, it feels like an itch that gets to be scratched at last. And yet with the ghosts of the past all around me, it becomes clear that what I seek is not to remember where a door leads to, but really what I'm looking for is Her, Abi. Who was she when she walked these halls 30 years ago? And more importantly, who is she now?
You might think that knowing who we are is obvious considering we've been living inside our bodies since we were born, and yet, who are you really in the depth of you, under the layers of conforming, contorting, compensating, and hiding, who are you really?
And from that deeper place, if you could shed the stuff that no longer jives with you, who do you want to become?
It takes courage to dive in, to let go, and to soar. It takes courage to change. And yet, when we learn to connect and listen to our deep truths, honor them, and move into life from them, the upgrade is tremendous.
If you wish to go on an expedition with me, to shed the baggage that has become too cumbersome, to find out what you actually want, to connect with your inherent intuition, and to be supported in a community of sisters, my online group is starting at the end of September, and I would love you to join us!
The metaphorical hallways are inside of you, and the next door you open can lead you right into your own belonging, and the next upgraded chapter of your life. I invite you to join me on this journey of transformation.
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