10/13/2020
I asked this question of parents yesterday and within one hour I had over 50 responses from parents confirming that they used to or still do have disturbing visualizations of harm coming to their children.
I learned a a few things from this post:
- After having children, many/most parents develop a new gift (or curse) that allows them to anticipate nearly any and everything that could go wrong as it relates to their child
- This "gift" can be very disturbing at times as it often manifests as very vivid scenarios played out visually as opposed to uncomfortable mental thoughts that come and go in passing
- This experience is often more intense when the children are first born but does not seem to ever fully "go away" no matter how old the children are
- The visualizations are often of things that would be very unlikely to happen but are still scary because there is the slightest chance that it could
- Many parents (especially mothers) are critical of themselves or receive criticism from others because they have had these intense fears
- Having experienced a trauma with a loved one in the past can intensify these fears
- Parents respond differently to these visualizations resulting in varied styles of parenting that can include "helicopter parenting" that has the potential to create conflict in the family
- Many parents report that prayer has helped to respond more effectively to these scary scenarios
- This experience appears to be completely normal though many parents suffer with these fears alone thinking they are the only ones who have experienced them
- If you have these fears you are not "weird", "crazy", or "overreacting." You are a parent who loves your child and would do anything to protect them, which is completely normal in my book.
*While these concerns are completely normal as a parent, if you are experiencing crippling fear and anxiety that is preventing you from completing normal day to day tasks, you may benefit from counseling to help you process these feelings. Let me know if I can help!