10/07/2023
We might get our first frost tonight or tomorrow. I really don't want my garden to be done, however there has been so much food to process I am feeling tired. Tonight I harvested my basil, covered the crops, roasted two huge bowls of tomatoes and only four more to go 😂
This year's garden has helped me navigate one of the hardest years of my life. I know this is why I cling to it, why I spend so much time in it even if I'm exhausted. It not only feeds us it feeds me, keeps me grounded, helps me stay on point with where I want to be. This year has brought more tears, forced me to find my power that I forgot existed within me and provides a safe space for me in days that I just need to cry. Today I learned of a friends passing, it is the second death in the last two weeks and the fourth one this year.
Colorado provides me with a true cycle of seasons that I can feel into, reminds me of the natural flow of life in ways that the tropics just never could. Humans are so convinced that we have any control in this life but we are so far from that as a truth. So I find myself hoping my garden will keep on, knowing it is almost time to place my focus elsewhere for a while.
Everyday Willow lights her Palo Santo stick, lights her candles and meditates. She says it makes her feel peaceful and drops her anxiety. Some days she invites me into her mediation time and for that I am grateful and an invitation I will accept every.single.time. I know it is helping her find acceptance and peace around the death of her friend.
So tonight as I cook down my tomato sauce I sit and remind myself of all the beauty that is in this world and feel into the gratitude that today my family is whole and here with me