14/12/2019
BRUISED FAITH!
WHAT IS BRUISED FAITH. You should first know what faith is...Hebrews 11 v 1 - faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
This morning after 6 I decided to go for a jog after 2 weeks. All the excuses was there not to go jogging. I had to deal with the thoughts in my mind to overcome this. I started jogging down our road and was just talking to the Lord, singing & praising Him. After a km I felt a pain in my left knee. Just before this I decided to go past my 5.6km mark. I decided to not look at the Mountain before me (7.2km) but to keep my head down because I had to trust my jogging tekkies (feet shod with the preparation of the gospel) to absorb to knocks to my knee. Everything from here was about my "gospel" tekkies..quoting & relying on scripture to help me finish the race. I eventually reached the halfway mark of 3.6km. My goal was 7.2km. To reach this goal I had to remind myself constantly of the breathing techniques. Breathing through the nose & out the mouth keeping tummy tucked in. While going this distance with pain in my left knee increasing, many thoughts went through my mind again of giving up, taking a shortcut to get home. Then in my spirit a message was reminding me of my walk with the Lord of how I started in the faith and trusting the Lord for great things in every area of my life & Ministry. This was more pertinent recently after the last year or so studying & praying in the early hours of the morning intently the word, healing, ministry & faith of Jesus and people being healed by Him, His response to their faith etc. I've shared on this group John 14 v 12 - 14 which has really touched me like no other scripture. It was because of this scripture that my faith was "BRUISED" tremendously the last couple of weeks because of seeing no results. Anger, frustration, resentment, doubt, disappointment, throwing in the towel and at times anxiety. etc. This was exasperated by the fact of not wanting to read the word, trust it or apply..In a nutshell my faith was badly bruised. I was angry with God for not honoring my faith, hearing my cries and intercession for myself, others for their healing & breakthroughs. Its important to note that I've been serving the Lord faithfully for over 33 years.
Back to my jogging. The pain intensified and I pleaded with the Lord for me to finish as I decided..7.2km. I saw other people jogging in groups. Coming back someone came past me as if it was a breeze to jog. This THORN IN MY FLESH was playing with my mind. Whilst on this road I saw obstacles, robots, stop streets etc..all this played in my mind of my faith walk with the Lord. At one stage there was question marks (?) written on portion of the road for jogging. Everything on this road reminded me of how close I am to my breakthroughs in every aspect of my life. The last 1.5km after passing the ? Mark's the pain increased tremendously that my right leg was basically absorbing all the weight & strain. I pleaded with the Lord to please help me finish as I felt I could not do it on my own. The last 1km stretch I was basically jogging limping & to top it all it was uphill. As I pushed in crying out to the Lord for the need to finish this faith I felt something which I can't explain come over me and I started increasing my pace to an extent I knew it was no longer me but the Lord taking over at a place I could not dream of. When I finished in front of my house I just promised & glorified Him. I went into my house and shared with my wife. I was not breathing heavily or sweating and was so dumbfounded because of how I felt finishing as if I had not actually jogged that far distance. To all out there, this is my faith journey with all the enemies distractions, curveballs ect. He came to heal & restored my "Bruised" faith this morning. DON'T GIVE UP ON YOUR FAITH JOURNEY BECAUSE OF ALL THE "DISAPPOINTMENTS. Blessings in abundance