20/06/2026
Caught myself flirting with the idea of calling my ex.
Not reaching for the phone — just the thought, circling.
If you’re a perfectionist who tried to earn your parents’ love in every impossible way — titles, roles, achievement, beauty, being exciting enough to keep — you know this one.
When I get tired of trying so hard, some part of me still believes a man is the only place I’ll hear it: yes darling, it’s okay, you got me now, no need to try harder, I am here.
14 years of doing this work. I still catch the thought.
The work was never finishing the pattern.
It’s catching it faster. Every time.
👇 If we made a list of every way we’ve seen or done auditioning for love — what would you add?