06/17/2026
When the work slows down, I used to think something was wrong. Now I know it's God.
My career has rarely been about me. From the beginning, this work has been about helping people find healing, real healing, spirit, soul, and body. That's never been the hard part.
Here's what I've had to get honest about instead.
There have been seasons where money quietly became the thing driving the work. Not loudly. Not obviously. Just a subtle shift from "I want to help this person heal" to "I need this to be sustainable, profitable, secure." Philautia doesn't always show up as vanity or pride. Sometimes it shows up as anxious ambition wearing the mask of responsibility.
Also I grew up poor. My Mom made sure I had all my needs met but we didnt have much and so when money is scare FEAR can set in and that is not Gods hand. He has always ensured all my needs are met; in every season. Especially in the ones where I once counted pennies to buy milk and bread.
And every single time that shift happened, even quietly, even with good intentions attached, things slowed down. Clients retracted. Doors that were open closed. Momentum I was counting on simply disappeared.
For years I read that as a problem to fix. Work harder. Market better. Push through.
Now I read it differently.
That slowdown was God's redirection. A gentle hand pulling my eyes off provision and back onto Him. Not punishment, correction. The kind a good Father gives because He loves the work too much to let it become about anything other than Him.
"Seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you." Matthew 6:33
Notice the order. Seek first. Not seek money first and trust God will bless it. Seek Him first, and let everything else, including provision, follow from that place.
I am still learning to feel that contraction and recognize it immediately for what it is, not a financial problem, but an invitation back to center.
If this is meeting you in a season of slowdown or retraction in your own work, I created something that might help.
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